Fickle

The world and everything that it holds is...Selfish, egocentric, egotistic, greedy, narcissistic, parsimonious, prejudiced, self-centered, self-indulgent, self-interested, self-seeking, stingy( 4pts.). Which in turn is slowly and ever so surely turning me into what I fear most, a cynic. There has to be an up side...Or maybe there isn't and I just think there is because I've been told that all my life. I am left feeling jaded, though some of my friends feel I've always been jaded....I'm more so than ever, and it has spread to more aspects of my life....And so, I find it difficult to see the upside.

If this is truly how it is...How do we co-exist appeasably. It seems an impossible feat. I mean look at it from any angle you want. Everything revolves around itself. Examples: The planets around the sun, moon around the planets, sperm around the egg, the world around yourself. It couldn't well be yourself around the world could it?

The answer: Detachment. Let me learn to master all that is connected to this word. By detaching myself from all that can cause me suffering, that only leaves happiness right, well if I can find happiness alone, then so be it. How ironic that my answer brings me right back to being ego-centric.

Someone is testing me hardcore right now!